Tag: happiness
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Mushroom Journal 2: Microdose Day
Microdose Day… I lost count because I messed up the system the first week. Let’s call this Microdose week 2. I was very much looking forward to taking my dose today. Yesterday was day 3 between doses and I definitely noticed it. I was dragging more. Lacking energy. Very worn out and tired. My head […]
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The Magic of Psilocybin
I came across some very interesting studies regarding psychedelics being used for mental health. I immediately started watching documentaries, reading books, and online journals, etc. to learn as much as possible about these psychedelics, specifically psilocybin. I learned about microdosing magic mushrooms for better overall mental health and well being. So I decided to be […]
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Wednesday Morning Thoughts
It’s 12:14 pm on Wednesday as I’m sitting at the kitchen table eating my breakfast. I’m enjoying a bacon and egg sandwich with my cup of tea. Chopin’s Nocturne No 1 in B Flat Minor plays around me. One of my favorites! I like to listen to classical music as I begin my day. It […]
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Dec 28, 2021
Today is 3 days past Christmas and my house has officially been restored to non-holiday status. Its nice to see everything put away and the clutter removed, but now my house looks sterile and empty. Maybe tomorrow I’ll bring out some stuff from storage and do some simple non-holiday decorating again. In February I’ll decorate […]
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Focus Inward
In light of my most recent discovery about myself, I’ve been reevaluating myself and my social interactions. I’ve spent my whole life trying to be social and have friends while always wondered what was wrong with me that I couldn’t do it like everybody else. I could never understand why it took so much effort […]
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Feeling Restless
*This was written a few weeks ago. I’m finally publishing it now. I feel restless. My mind craves something, but I can’t pinpoint it. It’s like my brain is starving for stimulus. I want to do lots of things but I can’t quite figure out what. I’m trying some new things hoping it’ll satisfy my […]
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What is this Strange Feeling?
I’ve been feeling strong. I’m feeling good! I feel amazing! I’m trying not to get too attached, but I truly enjoy each day of feeling good. I’m exercising, learning, having fun, being active, …acting normal. I’m even walking more than I have in years! I have a theory for my surprising strength and overall wellbeing. […]
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Summer Nights
My last post was all about feeling exhausted and fearing a flare. I can happily say that about a week later and I’m feeling pretty good, but a bit delicate. As long as I pace myself and rest often I can function, or at least have some fun. I am just taking it day by […]
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Ride the Wave…
I think I’ve definitely come out of my long winter flare and I am enjoying every second of feeling (almost) normal before its over. I think I’m currently at my peak. Keep in mind that a peak for me is about 85-90%, compared to a healthy person at 100%. I won’t complain though. This still […]
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Rebirth after a Flare
I’m happy to admit that I have been feeling pretty good lately. I finally came out of my flare about a month ago, and I’m so happy. It always feels like a rebirth. Like I woke up out of a months-long coma. This seems to be a pattern each year in the spring. I come […]
Surviving As Mom 