Feeling Restless

*This was written a few weeks ago. I’m finally publishing it now. I feel restless. My mind craves something, but I can’t pinpoint it. It’s like my brain is starving for stimulus. I want to do lots of things but I can’t quite figure out what. I’m trying some new things hoping it’ll satisfy myContinue reading “Feeling Restless”

What is this Strange Feeling?

I’ve been feeling strong. I’m feeling good! I feel amazing! I’m trying not to get too attached, but I truly enjoy each day of feeling good. I’m exercising, learning, having fun, being active, …acting normal. I’m even walking more than I have in years! I have a theory for my surprising strength and overall wellbeing.Continue reading “What is this Strange Feeling?”

Summer Nights

My last post was all about feeling exhausted and fearing a flare. I can happily say that about a week later and I’m feeling pretty good, but a bit delicate. As long as I pace myself and rest often I can function, or at least have some fun. I am just taking it day byContinue reading “Summer Nights”

Ride the Wave…

I think I’ve definitely come out of my long winter flare and I am enjoying every second of feeling (almost) normal before its over. I think I’m currently at my peak. Keep in mind that a peak for me is about 85-90%, compared to a healthy person at 100%. I won’t complain though. This stillContinue reading “Ride the Wave…”

Rebirth after a Flare

I’m happy to admit that I have been feeling pretty good lately. I finally came out of my flare about a month ago, and I’m so happy. It always feels like a rebirth. Like I woke up out of a months-long coma. This seems to be a pattern each year in the spring. I comeContinue reading “Rebirth after a Flare”

It’s Time for a Change

*I apologize if this writing seems disorganized. The brain fog is real today. My chronic illness is winning. It took away my happiness and my will. I stopped pushing and trying because existing was just too hard. I gave up. Sjogren’s Syndrome had beat me. It won! Over the years, I’d slowly stopped doing thingsContinue reading “It’s Time for a Change”

Finding Happiness

I am a work in progress. Especially in the last 2 years. I am (almost) always working to improve myself somehow. I can’t do much improvement on the physical part, but I can focus on the mental, emotional, spiritual, and social parts of myself. I find it important to set goals for myself. Otherwise IContinue reading “Finding Happiness”

Snow Day!

Yesterday was our first big snow of the season. We had a Nor’Easter which gave us about 7 inches of fresh, fluffy snow. I love the snow but only when I don’t have anywhere to go. This is also the first snow in our new house. The landscape is absolutely gorgeous! We have such aContinue reading “Snow Day!”

Feed the Birds…

Being stuck at home all the time is horribly boring and isolating. Even though I live with my husband and 4 children, I am still terribly lonely. The loneliness is excruciating! I crave human interaction, even though I often can’t handle much of it. It’s easy to get sucked into depression, and I often findContinue reading “Feed the Birds…”