Tag: depression
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I Feel Like a New Person!
I feel like a new person!! I keep trying to remind myself not to get too attached because I’m sure it is only temporary, but WOW!! I feel like I’ve been healed. I feel like a normal, healthy person. It feels too good to be true! I’ve actually cried from happiness, like a wish came…
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Stuck in my Head
I’ve always considered myself to be a reasonably smart, logical, well-balanced, normal kind of person. Everything made sense in my world and I was like most other people in the world (so I thought). Now I question my entire existence. All of those things that made me ME, I now realize are not normal. I…
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Mushroom Journal #1
It’s been about 2 weeks since I’ve started my journey with mushrooms to improve my brain and physical health. I’m very impressed with the results so far and am very intrigued to see what else I can learn! I’ve been taking Lion’s Mane mushrooms for about 2 weeks. This particular blend also includes other known…
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The Magic of Psilocybin
I came across some very interesting studies regarding psychedelics being used for mental health. I immediately started watching documentaries, reading books, and online journals, etc. to learn as much as possible about these psychedelics, specifically psilocybin. I learned about microdosing magic mushrooms for better overall mental health and well being. So I decided to be…
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Confused
Today is a better day. A stark contrast from 2 days ago. The sun came out and I can see goodness, although my view of the world is still a bit skewed. My depression is still lingering but it is much lighter today. Dare I say I’m on the upswing. I did finally reach out…
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Spiraling
I feel like I’m on the verge of a mental breakdown. My thoughts are spiraling out of control again. Negative thoughts. Ugly thoughts. Wondering who I really am. Feeling lost. Confused. Not sure who I am. Did I ever know who I was? When I was a teenager I was blissfully unaware of life and…
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Wednesday Morning Thoughts
It’s 12:14 pm on Wednesday as I’m sitting at the kitchen table eating my breakfast. I’m enjoying a bacon and egg sandwich with my cup of tea. Chopin’s Nocturne No 1 in B Flat Minor plays around me. One of my favorites! I like to listen to classical music as I begin my day. It…
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Focus Inward
In light of my most recent discovery about myself (being on the autism spectrum), I’ve been reevaluating myself and my social interactions. I’ve spent my whole life trying to be social and have friends while always wondered what was wrong with me that I couldn’t do it like everybody else. I could never understand why…
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When There is No One
I read a lot of motivational quotes and sayings about general positivity, mindfulness, etc. One thing that I often see is about the importance of having a loving and supportive circle of friends. How having friends can help me to live a longer, healthier, more fulfilled life. I hear people discuss how they’d be lost…
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I am Only Human
Yesterday I was sitting on my lounger next to the pool watching my 6 year old son and my 5 year old nephew swim together… I’m amused by their imagination as they make up random scenarios to act out together. It is early September and the weather is very mild. It is a comfortable…
Surviving As Mom 