Tag: anxiety
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Feeling Very Proud of Myself
Why am I so proud you ask? Well, last week I did a thing. I was independent and strong and I took 2 of my kids to the Museum of Natural History in NYC without Eddie coming to help me. It was a big trip for me to do without help. We had a 60…
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One Month In
It’s been about a month since starting my experiment. Today is day 3 between doses. I get to take my magical micro dose tomorrow, and I am very much looking forward to it. Today I am feeling a little extra tired. I am disappointed that my energy isn’t holding up as well as the first…
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Mushroom Journal 2: Microdose Day
Microdose Day… I lost count because I messed up the system the first week. Let’s call this Microdose week 2. I was very much looking forward to taking my dose today. Yesterday was day 3 between doses and I definitely noticed it. I was dragging more. Lacking energy. Very worn out and tired. My head…
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Mushroom Journal #1
It’s been about 2 weeks since I’ve started my journey with mushrooms to improve my brain and physical health. I’m very impressed with the results so far and am very intrigued to see what else I can learn! I’ve been taking Lion’s Mane mushrooms for about 2 weeks. This particular blend also includes other known…
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The Magic of Psilocybin
I came across some very interesting studies regarding psychedelics being used for mental health. I immediately started watching documentaries, reading books, and online journals, etc. to learn as much as possible about these psychedelics, specifically psilocybin. I learned about microdosing magic mushrooms for better overall mental health and well being. So I decided to be…
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Confused
Today is a better day. A stark contrast from 2 days ago. The sun came out and I can see goodness, although my view of the world is still a bit skewed. My depression is still lingering but it is much lighter today. Dare I say I’m on the upswing. I did finally reach out…
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Spiraling
I feel like I’m on the verge of a mental breakdown. My thoughts are spiraling out of control again. Negative thoughts. Ugly thoughts. Wondering who I really am. Feeling lost. Confused. Not sure who I am. Did I ever know who I was? When I was a teenager I was blissfully unaware of life and…
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Focus Inward
In light of my most recent discovery about myself (being on the autism spectrum), I’ve been reevaluating myself and my social interactions. I’ve spent my whole life trying to be social and have friends while always wondered what was wrong with me that I couldn’t do it like everybody else. I could never understand why…
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Living Life 2 hours at a Time
There’s this idea out there that if you (…or I) just think positive, then whatever is ailing us will just magically disappear. Like “have you tried not thinking about it?” or “You just need to be more positive”. As if the reason for my pain and illness is because I think about it too much.…
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Finding Happiness
I am a work in progress. Especially in the last 2 years. I am (almost) always working to improve myself somehow. I can’t do much improvement on the physical part, but I can focus on the mental, emotional, spiritual, and social parts of myself. I find it important to set goals for myself. Otherwise I…
Surviving As Mom 