Feeling Restless

*This was written a few weeks ago. I’m finally publishing it now. I feel restless. My mind craves something, but I can’t pinpoint it. It’s like my brain is starving for stimulus. I want to do lots of things but I can’t quite figure out what. I’m trying some new things hoping it’ll satisfy myContinue reading “Feeling Restless”

Summer Nights

My last post was all about feeling exhausted and fearing a flare. I can happily say that about a week later and I’m feeling pretty good, but a bit delicate. As long as I pace myself and rest often I can function, or at least have some fun. I am just taking it day byContinue reading “Summer Nights”

Ride the Wave…

I think I’ve definitely come out of my long winter flare and I am enjoying every second of feeling (almost) normal before its over. I think I’m currently at my peak. Keep in mind that a peak for me is about 85-90%, compared to a healthy person at 100%. I won’t complain though. This stillContinue reading “Ride the Wave…”

Rebirth after a Flare

I’m happy to admit that I have been feeling pretty good lately. I finally came out of my flare about a month ago, and I’m so happy. It always feels like a rebirth. Like I woke up out of a months-long coma. This seems to be a pattern each year in the spring. I comeContinue reading “Rebirth after a Flare”

It’s Time for a Change

*I apologize if this writing seems disorganized. The brain fog is real today. My chronic illness is winning. It took away my happiness and my will. I stopped pushing and trying because existing was just too hard. I gave up. Sjogren’s Syndrome had beat me. It won! Over the years, I’d slowly stopped doing thingsContinue reading “It’s Time for a Change”

Consumed by Self Loathing

I decided today to make a list of the things I like about everyone in my family. I made a nice long list for each of my kids and my husband. I listed all the things I love and find special about each of them. It made me smile to think of all the waysContinue reading “Consumed by Self Loathing”

Finding Happiness

I am a work in progress. Especially in the last 2 years. I am (almost) always working to improve myself somehow. I can’t do much improvement on the physical part, but I can focus on the mental, emotional, spiritual, and social parts of myself. I find it important to set goals for myself. Otherwise IContinue reading “Finding Happiness”

Learning How to Save Myself…

I wanted to write this blog to share something that has truly helped me during my darkest times. I was drowning in pain, depression, hopelessness, and despair and I needed to find a way to save myself. This is how I’m doing it. Its true that when you are sick, tired, and in pain nearlyContinue reading “Learning How to Save Myself…”

Feed the Birds…

Being stuck at home all the time is horribly boring and isolating. Even though I live with my husband and 4 children, I am still terribly lonely. The loneliness is excruciating! I crave human interaction, even though I often can’t handle much of it. It’s easy to get sucked into depression, and I often findContinue reading “Feed the Birds…”